
Day 5: Depression in Roseburg, Oregon
Feeling this incredible darkness made me unable to feel anything else. I hated that I couldn’t stop it, that I couldn’t fix it. I hated not being in control. I felt alone, deeply alone.

Feeling this incredible darkness made me unable to feel anything else. I hated that I couldn’t stop it, that I couldn’t fix it. I hated not being in control. I felt alone, deeply alone.

In the United States, I still sometimes struggle being alone. I don’t need pep talks because I focus more on the enjoyment of what I’m partaking in. But dining alone takes some getting used to.

I went on a ten-mile hike, enjoying the beautiful sights around Klamath Falls, Oregon. Hiking has a way of relieving stress for me. Being in nature is crucial for me.

I was starting to get in the rhythm of road-tripping solo. I saw an outdoor sculpture garden and had to stop. Isn’t that what road trips are all about? Random stops?

In that moment of loading up my car at this crappy 2-star hotel, I thought, “Is this what my life has become? Is this my new normal? Oh no.”

I sat there eating in silence, crying. A feeling came over me that felt like I just slid back in life. I spent 15 years building a life; found and married my husband, bought and sold a condo, bought a house, and built a great career. Now it was all gone.

I still couldn’t process anything. It’s a weird feeling knowing you should be feeling something, but you just can’t. I had lots to do from finishing projects at work, packing, and throwing a fantastic going-away party!

In 2016, I separated from my husband of almost ten years. I hiked the John Muir Trail that year, solo, which gave me the strength I needed to move forward. In 2018, I decided to sell my house, quit my corporate job, and travel full-time around the world.
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